I am now twenty-something and I am having the best time of my life.
I am financially independent. I travel whenever I want. I have a supportive family. I have genuine and real friends. I make time for my daily devotions. My life is filled with love and happiness and does not revolve to just one person they usually call better half… because I am whole.
But sometimes, I feel like I don’t know what I’m gonna do in the future. Just recently, I quit from my previous job (not that I hate it) because I feel this urge to go back in my hometown and live with my parents. Not to go back being dependent but to be able to spend more time with them. As you know, our parents are not getting any younger. I’ve been away from my family since I entered freshman year in college way way back. A decade ago. And so one day, I woke up and decided that I wanna live with my parents to make up for lost time.
That ticket I bought for my flight going home does not guarantee that I'll still have everything that I achieved for the last ten years.
It’s a quick way out but at the end of the day, when you get sober in a pool of your own thoughts, insecurities suddenly crashed in and you no longer know if you are really sane buying that ticket.
Moreover, after hooours of fighting to regain your sanity, you will realize that it is okay to not know everything about life. It is okay even if you’re unsure of what’s to come. It’s okay to lose control. This doesn’t make you a failure. It is okay to go back to square one, live a new life again and start from scratch if needed.
Hey Universe, surprise me!
I am so thrilled for this new chapter to come that I let go all my insecurities and just go along. Pretty sure, God has better plans for me. See this turn of events allowed me to start on this blog, a long time dream that I wasn’t able to pursue due to lack of time from previous jobs and lack of confidence that I can actually make it. But since I will be unemployed for God knows until when, I’d rather keep myself busy venturing on this blog than getting drown in my own crazy thoughts.
Anyhow, I’ve got nothing to lose, so let’s do it.
There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind.